I can't unbreak my heart...

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fdr
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I can't unbreak my heart...

My story is very similar to so many others.

I decided to leave my marriage in the Fall of 2018, and after many requests, he has asked me to stay to work it out...

 I 'm trying to make this work, and he has stopped gaming but, the other side of this story is that he has started drinking heavily, made acusations of me cheating, and threaten to take away my financial mobiilty.   Is this withdrawl?!?

Truthfully, I have run out of steam and I don't know how to go back...

What I do know is that, we've been here so many times before when the gaming has stopped, it begins again.

I know that the way he has treated me has been disrespectful, deciteful and unkind.

I know that even the thought of returning to my relationship, grips my heart with such pain that it stops my breathing.

After 20 years of marrige, 10 years of outwardly trying to speak to my concerns, address the sadness, frustrating conversations, weeping, bouts of anger and exhaustion - My heart is broken and I've given up.

 

fdr

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Hi fdr and welcome

Hi fdr and welcome

Thanks for sharing. When the situation is hopeless we have to look after ourselves. So sorry for your loss due to addiction. Take good care of yourself. Pay attention to your feelings. Get therapy if it helps.  I hope that you make an awesome new life for yourself and can move on. Get lots of support for you. hugs x

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