I'm right here, doing,well,game free still no relapses.so I'm over ten months game free, wish my iPad didn't have diffculties on this site but it does. So even though I'd like to share about a lot, it's very glitzy typing this and slow. Im very grateful to Olga, I'm very grateful to be game free and growing in recovery. I send you all great love and compassion. Celebrate the day!
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Thank you for coming by to share your success with us, Onedayatatime. It's very welcome good news. And I love your tag line -
Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
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Acceptance. When I am disturbed, it is because a person, place, thing, or situation is unacceptable to me. I find no serenity until I accept my life as being exactly the way it is meant to be. Nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Acknowledge the problem, but live the solution!
ok on a real cokputer tonight, so ill post and attend a meeting in 20 mins here. yeeha. tomorrow will be 11 months game free...the plague of LOTRO is no more, just for today.
Just noticed i joined Olga 3years and 14 weeks ago. im thinking ive inbetween relapses Id guess id been off games 2 years then, but let me tell my storty that the few months of gaming have brought even more pain and destruction to my life. Today I am very grateful to be free from the obsession and esire to game, I can feel some reservations but ive been doing a very good job these last 11 months to create a better life that doesnt prefer gaming, ive actually come to relize that i avaid games of any sort if possible, ive discovered it doesnt need to be digital for my illness to run amok. So just for today my disease manifests around relationships and dating, and the pull to watch TV and "check-out" from reality and responsiblities. Ive improved 10 fold but ive still progress to make. when im praticing my daily program, of 12 steps and other practices that are part of my Higher Power of my understanding things get and stay great, but some day i drift, sometimes very slowly that its not till a week or two later that i notice. then i get help, i am very grateful to have so so many people who are interested in my spiritual growth and recovery, frankly i get the help even if im not looking for it, thats how lucking and blessed i am today. No just need to keep at turning over my destructive will that hides and refuses help and desire isolation and self-pity. ive just recovered from a alittle more than a week of this disconnection, so life on life terms that i wasnt feeling all that happy about and I wanted and acted like a scared child (hmm feels more and more like the core of my disease...hmmm) So i disconnected from other and avoided my responsiblities with the convenient mainfestion of a cold and cough, my FAV reason/ reservation in my spiritual program, nothing like a illness to wave around for justifcation to hide and not show up! its a classic. Anyway turning this around into a leason so I may be more ready and prepared to stem it off before I lose a week. I just needed to more honest with peole in my life around some pain i was feeling, around so life and death stuff and my new relationship, relationships are my 2nd most FAV areas to create justifications for not having to live my life "GOD" centered. But now with 10 years Clean for drugs and almost a year game free and many many other areas of diseased free areas, I am trully grateful to be alive and recovering...ooops meeting time.... 3 hours to 11 months!
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Acceptance. When I am disturbed, it is because a person, place, thing, or situation is unacceptable to me. I find no serenity until I accept my life as being exactly the way it is meant to be. Nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Acknowledge the problem, but live the solution!
hmm gonna start posting here more and see how it feels again. coming up on a year on the 27th, but ive been desiring gaming alot, I could list abunch of reasons for this, but im learning not to get too involved with that dead end, but for the sake of dumping, this time of the year/holidays is a winner, im getting a rediculas nice new Apple laptop next week, im in a long distance relationship...shes in Japon Im outside of New York, and maybe the biggest thing Im doing good, im a productive member of society and for my family.
Hmm feeling like a losser and good for nothing so long can really condition you to stay that way, and breaking that self inflicted mind trap of beliefs is an interesting process to go through. Failing is what I was really good at doing, or better yet not doing anything,no effort, no try, no doing, was my agenda, actualy failing would imply I tried, in some way failing would be a step up. Hmm maybe thats why I avoided so long doing anything so I could ever feel failure, or someting crazy like that. I was phycaly beaten badly when i made mistakes, whether or not I actually made the mistake, not to blame, but just further exploration of my patterning/conditioning. hmm yeah I want ever hit for being a quiter and not trying, well atlest not phyically, verbally yes but well I guess tooning out was a good way to avoid feeling the verbal pain, phyical not so much, so the plan is to not do anything and toon out to stay safe, its logical its a sure thing, if your a child this is a master plan, gaming came in really nice in the catagory of checking out. problem is I havent been a child in way too many decades, nor am i hurt phyically or for the most part even verbally so whats my excuse, hmm Addiction? its a simply answer that address this in the now. A Dis-ease, an infliction of the body,mind and spirit, a state of unease, distrubance, disorder...hmm
do I crave things when i am at ease? hmm not really sure what ease is? ive experienced a lessering of pain and suffering, is that ease or just less, or is it simple that my perception isnt acurate to what really is. can I be health but believe otherwise, kind of a mind trap, hmm I dont know.
I do know that I have a burning desire to game, I keep telling myslef ill game tommorrow been doing this for several days now, I dont realy feel bad im making alot of olga meeting and NA/AA meetings, I talk to my sponsor every day, just finished step 1 with him, hes a new sponsor for me. starting step 2. but i really want to play LOTRO, no other game just that, the obsession has come again...so here i write it, reminders me of that bible thing, maybe Jesus says it, with God you can move a mountain, just bring a shove. So here i am shoving as much as I can with the Hope the mountain will certainly move, One Day At A Time
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
I relapsed just before my one year mark, i think the 25-26 of Dec.
Ive been really to afraid to connect and talk about it, the obsession was so so so great i gave in, and now im hooked to it again, and dont realy really want to stop, but then here i am writing about it. I havent hit the worst of it, been too busy with other things, but im not sure my soul knows the difference between alot or alittle, anyway it doesnt feel good wrecking a years of work but its the truth i will learn tot accept, there were alot of things that contributed to my giving up, but im not sure its worth getting into at this momnet, the bottom line is i wanted to use, and at some point i didnt really really get the help for it, the last 2 days before i didnt keep connected with my sponsor, maybe i was using it was the holiday stuff to justify, i did make 33 meets in 30 days, so it wasnt that, I think parts of me wanted to see if i could doing better, kinda sadly I am doing it somewhat better, mostly because ive created a life of things to stay busy with so far, and even though they have suffered somewhat it hasnt been super terrible ...yet. I go away for 2 weeks tommorow and im not gonna bring my new lap top with me just my IPAD, so no LOTRO for me, and i think its been a day and a half without gaming at this point, but im not sure il make it till tommorow...so today im starting to reach out again. even though im not so sure ive got enough willingness to stay stopped, but im working on it. Thanks for Listening.
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
It takes willingness, courage and integrity to quit an addiction. Thanks for coming and sharing with honesty. I finally quit playing because I got tired of being always in constant anxiety about it. I knew that gaming hurt me, and that my attempts to moderate could only be temporary.. and so it was either give myself over.. or quit.
Personally, I am so glad I made the choice to let gaming go.. Peace is worth so much and is very underrated I think.
Thank you all, yeah im packing for a 2 week trip, kinda irratated would rather game, but im not, and im not bringing cpu, so ill be off the web for 2 weeks, but maybe the time will let me see things more clearly and resurrender fully this time, miss you too Pat, < 3 you all, bottom line is my new growth is uncomfortable and old familur pain, is easy to accept.
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
In AA it is common for people to "go out" during their anniversary time. I never could figure it out why. Some people feel that it's during the time you quit initially so it brings back feelings you had at the time you quit. And/or it's because after a year it all feels more PERMANENT.
That's why I just focus on one day at a time (hint!) instead of those milestones. Yes I do celebrate milestones, but not everyday. Milestones are nice little cherries on top of the hot fudge sundae, but One day at a time is the entire sundae.
And unfortunately, now that you've indulged a bit, you'll have the cravings more intensely. Big hugs!
Alan, it's so good to hear from you, even though I'm sorry you are struggling right now. I hope you have a good two weeks and that at the end of it you'll come back to us and come to a meeting. I always enjoyed having you at meetings and I've learned from what you've shared. Take care.
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I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.
Me, too! (What Dan said ^) Take good care of yourself, Alan, and hope to see you back here in a couple of weeks.
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Acceptance. When I am disturbed, it is because a person, place, thing, or situation is unacceptable to me. I find no serenity until I accept my life as being exactly the way it is meant to be. Nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Acknowledge the problem, but live the solution!
It really is great to hear from you. I know myself and a few others were wondering how you have been.
Big props for coming back and posting again. It takes guts to be honest with yourself and with others, especially about something like a relapse. I know from personal experience that the shame can be immense. I beleive that many things are important in recovery, and it really isn't easy, but I've found simplicity for me: as long as I am fully honest with myself and with another person (sponsor) I seem to find some serenity. It's not easy, and takes immense courage, but you're already doing it, and you know how to continue doing it.
Good luck on your trip, and I hope to see you back at meetings or posting more in the future. Big hugs and s
Hi everyone i back after about a 2 years relaspe, i had some months in that time white knuckling it, but saturday the 23 i had my first meeting in years. today is 24 hours for me, my games are gone, and i am hope full im glad there are more meetings and set hours, and im glad there are more meeting with CGAA which is also very helpful, yesterday i had four meetings so that is a first and i think is what granted me the ability to finally remove my games. anyway im pretty tired and having withdrawls, at times i thing im halucinating , im confused and low energy and focus, i wish i could say this is a new experience for me, but it isnt, i just need to hang in here, one day at a time, im married now and having a baby, in mid Oct. and I dont want my child having a disconnected dad, lost on the cyber land. im feeling all confused feelings i miss games and its kinda who i think i am, i know this will pass if i stay game free, but things have gotten tougher over the years, apps and phone and all makes it so easy to slip, i cant look up a calculator with out 20 ads for games and i really just need to get help. I dont want to waste my life anymore and i am no longer just me, ive a wife and child to be, so this cant just be about me. though i want it to be, im so self center at this point, the pain of looking outwards is strong. but ill make the 9pm tonight and the 10 mummble metting, and maybe ill be on my way to day 2, God willing...the first 2 meeting back i created a new Accout UNLIFE , mostly out of shame and guilt, but Im done with that for now so here i am, praying i can remain surrendered and God can restore me to sanity, cause i really am insane, no other way to put it. And im dealing with some other serious medical illness that definatedly added fuel to my need to escape from reality, but i cant continue, i need to recover and build new, I need Help everywhere and anywhere i can find it. Thx
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
im hanging in there at day 5 now, still withdrawls but im seeing improvement, been sleeping alot more, and just generl exhaustion,but im making several meeting each day, im sad seem two days in a row there is no 3 pm meeting, here, and im abit confused with the olga-anon, my wife was on tuesday night for it and there was no one for it, im grateful she is willing to learn and get help as i get help, im not sure where she can get help im not clear is there are olga-anon meeting anymore??? any way im blogging here cause i really felt i could use a meeeting atm, but so far there doesnt seem to be any, id lead it if one other was here...just takes two, but anyway, im hopeful and scared, strange mix, but i guess when you mixed up you get things like that. Ive many responsibilities i need to get to but first i need to recover, or ill loss and progress, Gaming addiction has really been worst for me then my drug and alchol addictions, which ive been clean almost 13years yet, these last 3-4 yeas games have done a real serious ammount of damage to me. not that the full35 years havent messed me up, but i do know having put together months and one almost a yeas and relasping the pain is far greater...yet i guess ill accept this is what my higher power had in store for me, the lessons needed to be learn, better thinking this than finding another reason to beat myself down and degrade myself, cause all that will accomplise is pushing me closer to saying f it game, tricky illness isnt it. so im grateful ive five days, i pray ill stay clean from them another day...
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Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
you want that 90 day chip?
looking forward to giving it to you
gl hf:)
leveling in steps, serenity, sponcys, sponsors, exercise, and sleep, (sanity has been downsized) sober from all electronic games since 11/19/2010
I'm right here, doing,well,game free still no relapses.so I'm over ten months game free, wish my iPad didn't have diffculties on this site but it does. So even though I'd like to share about a lot, it's very glitzy typing this and slow. Im very grateful to Olga, I'm very grateful to be game free and growing in recovery. I send you all great love and compassion. Celebrate the day!
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Congratulations, that's wonderful!
Twelve miles into the forest, 12 miles out.
Left my poisonous game July 4, 2012. Left online communities June 4, 2013.
Thank you for coming by to share your success with us, Onedayatatime. It's very welcome good news. And I love your tag line -
Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Acceptance. When I am disturbed, it is because a person, place, thing, or situation is unacceptable to me. I find no serenity until I accept my life as being exactly the way it is meant to be. Nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Acknowledge the problem, but live the solution!
ok on a real cokputer tonight, so ill post and attend a meeting in 20 mins here. yeeha. tomorrow will be 11 months game free...the plague of LOTRO is no more, just for today.
Just noticed i joined Olga 3years and 14 weeks ago. im thinking ive inbetween relapses Id guess id been off games 2 years then, but let me tell my storty that the few months of gaming have brought even more pain and destruction to my life. Today I am very grateful to be free from the obsession and esire to game, I can feel some reservations but ive been doing a very good job these last 11 months to create a better life that doesnt prefer gaming, ive actually come to relize that i avaid games of any sort if possible, ive discovered it doesnt need to be digital for my illness to run amok. So just for today my disease manifests around relationships and dating, and the pull to watch TV and "check-out" from reality and responsiblities. Ive improved 10 fold but ive still progress to make. when im praticing my daily program, of 12 steps and other practices that are part of my Higher Power of my understanding things get and stay great, but some day i drift, sometimes very slowly that its not till a week or two later that i notice. then i get help, i am very grateful to have so so many people who are interested in my spiritual growth and recovery, frankly i get the help even if im not looking for it, thats how lucking and blessed i am today. No just need to keep at turning over my destructive will that hides and refuses help and desire isolation and self-pity. ive just recovered from a alittle more than a week of this disconnection, so life on life terms that i wasnt feeling all that happy about and I wanted and acted like a scared child (hmm feels more and more like the core of my disease...hmmm) So i disconnected from other and avoided my responsiblities with the convenient mainfestion of a cold and cough, my FAV reason/ reservation in my spiritual program, nothing like a illness to wave around for justifcation to hide and not show up! its a classic. Anyway turning this around into a leason so I may be more ready and prepared to stem it off before I lose a week. I just needed to more honest with peole in my life around some pain i was feeling, around so life and death stuff and my new relationship, relationships are my 2nd most FAV areas to create justifications for not having to live my life "GOD" centered. But now with 10 years Clean for drugs and almost a year game free and many many other areas of diseased free areas, I am trully grateful to be alive and recovering...ooops meeting time.... 3 hours to 11 months!
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
ulooks like i need to edit abit...last post...
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Congrats on 11 mos, One. Great share.
Acceptance. When I am disturbed, it is because a person, place, thing, or situation is unacceptable to me. I find no serenity until I accept my life as being exactly the way it is meant to be. Nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Acknowledge the problem, but live the solution!
hmm gonna start posting here more and see how it feels again. coming up on a year on the 27th, but ive been desiring gaming alot, I could list abunch of reasons for this, but im learning not to get too involved with that dead end, but for the sake of dumping, this time of the year/holidays is a winner, im getting a rediculas nice new Apple laptop next week, im in a long distance relationship...shes in Japon Im outside of New York, and maybe the biggest thing Im doing good, im a productive member of society and for my family.
Hmm feeling like a losser and good for nothing so long can really condition you to stay that way, and breaking that self inflicted mind trap of beliefs is an interesting process to go through. Failing is what I was really good at doing, or better yet not doing anything,no effort, no try, no doing, was my agenda, actualy failing would imply I tried, in some way failing would be a step up. Hmm maybe thats why I avoided so long doing anything so I could ever feel failure, or someting crazy like that. I was phycaly beaten badly when i made mistakes, whether or not I actually made the mistake, not to blame, but just further exploration of my patterning/conditioning. hmm yeah I want ever hit for being a quiter and not trying, well atlest not phyically, verbally yes but well I guess tooning out was a good way to avoid feeling the verbal pain, phyical not so much, so the plan is to not do anything and toon out to stay safe, its logical its a sure thing, if your a child this is a master plan, gaming came in really nice in the catagory of checking out. problem is I havent been a child in way too many decades, nor am i hurt phyically or for the most part even verbally so whats my excuse, hmm Addiction? its a simply answer that address this in the now. A Dis-ease, an infliction of the body,mind and spirit, a state of unease, distrubance, disorder...hmm
do I crave things when i am at ease? hmm not really sure what ease is? ive experienced a lessering of pain and suffering, is that ease or just less, or is it simple that my perception isnt acurate to what really is. can I be health but believe otherwise, kind of a mind trap, hmm I dont know.
I do know that I have a burning desire to game, I keep telling myslef ill game tommorrow been doing this for several days now, I dont realy feel bad im making alot of olga meeting and NA/AA meetings, I talk to my sponsor every day, just finished step 1 with him, hes a new sponsor for me. starting step 2. but i really want to play LOTRO, no other game just that, the obsession has come again...so here i write it, reminders me of that bible thing, maybe Jesus says it, with God you can move a mountain, just bring a shove. So here i am shoving as much as I can with the Hope the mountain will certainly move, One Day At A Time
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
good posts, thx for updating.
Feb 1
I relapsed just before my one year mark, i think the 25-26 of Dec.
Ive been really to afraid to connect and talk about it, the obsession was so so so great i gave in, and now im hooked to it again, and dont realy really want to stop, but then here i am writing about it. I havent hit the worst of it, been too busy with other things, but im not sure my soul knows the difference between alot or alittle, anyway it doesnt feel good wrecking a years of work but its the truth i will learn tot accept, there were alot of things that contributed to my giving up, but im not sure its worth getting into at this momnet, the bottom line is i wanted to use, and at some point i didnt really really get the help for it, the last 2 days before i didnt keep connected with my sponsor, maybe i was using it was the holiday stuff to justify, i did make 33 meets in 30 days, so it wasnt that, I think parts of me wanted to see if i could doing better, kinda sadly I am doing it somewhat better, mostly because ive created a life of things to stay busy with so far, and even though they have suffered somewhat it hasnt been super terrible ...yet. I go away for 2 weeks tommorow and im not gonna bring my new lap top with me just my IPAD, so no LOTRO for me, and i think its been a day and a half without gaming at this point, but im not sure il make it till tommorow...so today im starting to reach out again. even though im not so sure ive got enough willingness to stay stopped, but im working on it. Thanks for Listening.
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
It takes willingness, courage and integrity to quit an addiction. Thanks for coming and sharing with honesty. I finally quit playing because I got tired of being always in constant anxiety about it. I knew that gaming hurt me, and that my attempts to moderate could only be temporary.. and so it was either give myself over.. or quit.
Personally, I am so glad I made the choice to let gaming go.. Peace is worth so much and is very underrated I think.
Welcome back Alan. We have a vibrant meeting scene here these days. They've been very helpful to me. Hope to keep seeing you around!
What you feed grows, and what you starve withers away.
Dear Alan, you do know we < 3 you and wish you the best of everything.
Just come back and be with us. We won't bite you or make you feel bad. This is a team effort and we support you.
Thank you all, yeah im packing for a 2 week trip, kinda irratated would rather game, but im not, and im not bringing cpu, so ill be off the web for 2 weeks, but maybe the time will let me see things more clearly and resurrender fully this time, miss you too Pat, < 3 you all, bottom line is my new growth is uncomfortable and old familur pain, is easy to accept.
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
In AA it is common for people to "go out" during their anniversary time. I never could figure it out why. Some people feel that it's during the time you quit initially so it brings back feelings you had at the time you quit. And/or it's because after a year it all feels more PERMANENT.
That's why I just focus on one day at a time (hint!) instead of those milestones. Yes I do celebrate milestones, but not everyday. Milestones are nice little cherries on top of the hot fudge sundae, but One day at a time is the entire sundae.
And unfortunately, now that you've indulged a bit, you'll have the cravings more intensely. Big hugs!
Alan, it's so good to hear from you, even though I'm sorry you are struggling right now. I hope you have a good two weeks and that at the end of it you'll come back to us and come to a meeting. I always enjoyed having you at meetings and I've learned from what you've shared. Take care.
I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.
Me, too! (What Dan said ^) Take good care of yourself, Alan, and hope to see you back here in a couple of weeks.
Acceptance. When I am disturbed, it is because a person, place, thing, or situation is unacceptable to me. I find no serenity until I accept my life as being exactly the way it is meant to be. Nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Acknowledge the problem, but live the solution!
It really is great to hear from you. I know myself and a few others were wondering how you have been.
Big props for coming back and posting again. It takes guts to be honest with yourself and with others, especially about something like a relapse. I know from personal experience that the shame can be immense. I beleive that many things are important in recovery, and it really isn't easy, but I've found simplicity for me: as long as I am fully honest with myself and with another person (sponsor) I seem to find some serenity. It's not easy, and takes immense courage, but you're already doing it, and you know how to continue doing it.
Good luck on your trip, and I hope to see you back at meetings or posting more in the future. Big hugs and s
Last game played: April 24th 2014
Hi everyone i back after about a 2 years relaspe, i had some months in that time white knuckling it, but saturday the 23 i had my first meeting in years. today is 24 hours for me, my games are gone, and i am hope full im glad there are more meetings and set hours, and im glad there are more meeting with CGAA which is also very helpful, yesterday i had four meetings so that is a first and i think is what granted me the ability to finally remove my games. anyway im pretty tired and having withdrawls, at times i thing im halucinating , im confused and low energy and focus, i wish i could say this is a new experience for me, but it isnt, i just need to hang in here, one day at a time, im married now and having a baby, in mid Oct. and I dont want my child having a disconnected dad, lost on the cyber land. im feeling all confused feelings i miss games and its kinda who i think i am, i know this will pass if i stay game free, but things have gotten tougher over the years, apps and phone and all makes it so easy to slip, i cant look up a calculator with out 20 ads for games and i really just need to get help. I dont want to waste my life anymore and i am no longer just me, ive a wife and child to be, so this cant just be about me. though i want it to be, im so self center at this point, the pain of looking outwards is strong. but ill make the 9pm tonight and the 10 mummble metting, and maybe ill be on my way to day 2, God willing...the first 2 meeting back i created a new Accout UNLIFE , mostly out of shame and guilt, but Im done with that for now so here i am, praying i can remain surrendered and God can restore me to sanity, cause i really am insane, no other way to put it. And im dealing with some other serious medical illness that definatedly added fuel to my need to escape from reality, but i cant continue, i need to recover and build new, I need Help everywhere and anywhere i can find it. Thx
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)
Glad you are here and congratulations regarding soon becoming a Dad :)
Strength and peace to you
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im hanging in there at day 5 now, still withdrawls but im seeing improvement, been sleeping alot more, and just generl exhaustion,but im making several meeting each day, im sad seem two days in a row there is no 3 pm meeting, here, and im abit confused with the olga-anon, my wife was on tuesday night for it and there was no one for it, im grateful she is willing to learn and get help as i get help, im not sure where she can get help im not clear is there are olga-anon meeting anymore??? any way im blogging here cause i really felt i could use a meeeting atm, but so far there doesnt seem to be any, id lead it if one other was here...just takes two, but anyway, im hopeful and scared, strange mix, but i guess when you mixed up you get things like that. Ive many responsibilities i need to get to but first i need to recover, or ill loss and progress, Gaming addiction has really been worst for me then my drug and alchol addictions, which ive been clean almost 13years yet, these last 3-4 yeas games have done a real serious ammount of damage to me. not that the full35 years havent messed me up, but i do know having put together months and one almost a yeas and relasping the pain is far greater...yet i guess ill accept this is what my higher power had in store for me, the lessons needed to be learn, better thinking this than finding another reason to beat myself down and degrade myself, cause all that will accomplise is pushing me closer to saying f it game, tricky illness isnt it. so im grateful ive five days, i pray ill stay clean from them another day...
Finding a Spiritual solution to my everyday problems. My gratitude speaks when I care and share the OLGA way. Deciding to Celebrate the Day, regardless of what I think about that. :)