Progress

Hello

It was xmas day 2011 when I last played WoW in any meaningful way. But i relapsed about 30 times between 2009 and then. My hardcore addiction time was 2007 to 2009..

I have installed the game once since xmas 2011 and looked at an avatar in a starter zone and wondered as i looked at myself looking at my avater "what the hell is this?"...that lasted a few minutes. In September 2012 I did play an avatar for 30 minutes and felt the troubled disgust that many on this website report feeling when they relapse.

Shortly after that I began a 16 month relationship and it ended on Dec 9th 2013. During that relationship I looked at a WoW forum a few times.

In the last few weeks I have been homeless , but a few days ago found a place and can now get myself back on my feet.

I don't believe I will play WoW . Once I have a job and money coming in there is a danger I could re-buy it.

I am posting this in the "progress report" section because my progress may help others.

I believe that this WoW addiction came to my life to help me grow as a person. I couldn't describe how, It is more something my intuition knows and feels. There is always a silver lining on a cloud. In a Buddhist paradigm/terminology I would say "everything be it bad or good has buddha nature". I guess in a monotheistic tradition like the one i grew up in (judaism) it would be "god moves in mysterious ways, ours is not to reason why.."

I dont have internet in my home for another 5 days Its been fiddly coming out to a cafe everytiime i need to look something up (my phone is an old iphone so i cant use that instead at home).

I hope to go to another europe meeting when I have internet.

Love to all of you.