Ever since I quit playing FFXI, all I've been doing is crying. 24/7. It's not the game I miss. I do miss it, but I don't feel compelled to play.
In fact, I wasn't even sure what I should post here. I don't seem to have a lot of energy to post anything. I feel empty and grey, and in a lot of pain.
I think I'll do this in little steps. Making posts.
A lot of my life is just gone, and I'm very afraid, and have no future. I'm also sad and angry, very mourning, very upset, and very afraid.
A lot of my friends are playing WoW. I have an account but rarely touch it. WoW is boring, which is good.
Without the game, I have restless, unfillfillable, taunting dreams...
Quote:A lot of my life is just gone, and I'm very afraid, and have no future.
Yes, thats one way of looking at it.
There is another: a lot of your life - your time and energy is back. You just donA't know it yet.
Why donA't you allow yourself to discover it, gradually day by day, step by step.
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What you think, you create. What you say, you produce. What you do, you call forth more of.
Proto -- don't play any computer games, and try to get a long span of time to go by without *any* games, like Liz says. (I'm on day 14). Shoot for a month straight, cold turkey. Maybe at *that* point, look around and see how things appear *then*. Right now, the future (and probably yourself) appear hopeless and overwhelming... but with enough time with no games, I think that perception can shift. The brain has to re-wire, or something. Hang in there!