Old french guy

Welcome Meltan

I am hearing that its been a struggle but you have managed to keep clean for 7 months. Well done and keep up the good work. I hope you find meetings helpful.

That's great !

Hi Polga,

My name is Mark Onwumere.  I'm 27 years of age and I'm from North London in the UK.  I just wanted to share my battle with gaming addiction (addiction in general really; I also had an addiction to pornography, and smoking marijuana).  When I was really young, I experienced a sexual assult, and never came to terms with what happened and why it had happened.  It was a young woman who used to babysit me.  As my mother left me in her hands, she would after a while touch me inappropriately and begin to [sexually abuse me ] [edited].  I never wanted to accept what happened and come to terms with it so I drowned myself in addiction.  I would endulge in gaming, drugs and porn to help ease my pain.  It got so bad I no longer socialised and gained major weight where I didn't want to go out, or be active.  All I wanted to do was live a life outside of reality, where I didn't have to confront my demons.  

The shining light was faith.  Someone introduced me to church (I was a christian but I didn't practice fully).  Through my revived fatih in Christ, I was able to summon strength to fight those demons and turn my life around.  But there is no fatih without works.  That was what I was taught.  So I had to find tools in this life which would aid my fight.   One such tool was counseling.  Another such tool was books.  With my gaming issue in particular; I was intoduced to a book 'Combat Gaming Addiction' by my support group here in the UK.  This book was such an insightful read into what I could do to eventually overcome this addiction, as well as aiding me in tackling my other addicitons.  I can finally say after 20 years of not wanting to deal with my issues, I've fought them head on and have conquered them.

Please buy the book as it helped me and I'm sure it'll continue to help others.  Here's a link: edit link removed

If anyone wants to contact me, email me: markonwu@outlook.com

I would love to speak to people who are going through or have gone through what I went through

Thanks.

Hi Mark

I am so sorry to hear you went through this as a child and the devastating effect this has had on your life. It shou;d not have happened. Glad to hear you are recovering and moving forward now. 

I removed the link to the book as it is a shortened URL and removed a small amount of content.

Thank you for sharing.