Where do i even begin

I began playing Everquest in 2002, i made a ranger and i was 10 years old,

i saw my uncle playing at his house and was extremely fasnicated. I begged ,

BEGGED for the game for my birthday and i got it.

Ever since 2002, i have played eq, up until last night when i finally quit for good due to some toxic people on my guild discord and game guild. 

I played for along time. I got so invovled in it, i skipped my friends high school graduation, i missed prom,

i dropped out at 16 due to suicidal feelings during school due to bullying ,

id draw eq weapons and elves in my notebooks.

i mean in 4th grade, i wrote a BOOK on Everquest and had it published..

.i even drew my own images of elves and orcs. and listed my characters names in the book, like it was my own story. Granted it was written by a 4th grader as a school project..so only one book was ever made. but you could tell something was off about my brain.

Time passed, i became deeper into game, i made relationships, i got raped by someone i met online off eq, who i thought i trusted and loved. I made enemies,

i made friends who became enemies,

and now im hated nearly all over the Test server of EQ.

All because i lost my temper at someone while off my medication for one day. due to a lack of refills. 

I quit last night because, i had enough for crying all the time when someoen was offended by me , or my presence in guild or game. Being called out, told off, or plain told to go f*ck myself. 

The sexual harrasment was terrible as well. just saying.

Well...im starting over, no more online games, and im developing a hobby of jewerly making to stay busy and not think of EQ. IF anyone has advice...id love to hear it. Thanks. M.