Well folks its been 1 month and 6 days without everquest 2 :) i feel i have the strength to keep going. every now and then a weird thought crosses my mind as to sell my characters and log in for a good cause but i cant. my financial situation at times offers a false sense of reasoning behind it all. i know i cant, i would too easily be tempted to taste this apple.
at 1st this site wasn't very appealing to me but as i continued to type my feelings down i felt i was getting somewhere. i haven't been able to share these feelings outside of this keyboard due to the fact that no person that i know can relate or begin to understand what this game has done to me.
i keep telling myself if i quit smoking cigarettes i can do this as well. the urge is powerful, pretty compatible to the feeling you get when your drinking alcohol and you want to smoke or after a meal smoke. i can move forward i know it but i also know that even a taste will be a lethal dose of poison so i strive on!A
Congratulations on your progress so far! Although this site did not initially appeal to you, I am glad that it has grown on you, especially since you have helped other people with your posts. As you said, there are a lot of people here who understand what video games have done to you and the issues involved in quitting or limiting game play. From one recovering addict to another one, good luck in continuing to avoid the "poison".
- John O.
[em]Carpe Diem![/em] (Seize the Day!)
Yay, Skuz, you're doing awesome! All the former gamers here can relate to how you feel. Boy, is it ever a relief when someone truly understands, huh!! Really proud of you that you made it this far! It will get easier, trust me, and I'm happy to see that you at least know it's not a good idea at all to go back. Debbie
"Failure is an event, never a person." -- William D. Brown
Congrats! That's a huge achievement. I hope visiting this site helps you keep going.
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Congratz on making it through the first month !!! It is still hard but get easier the further away you get. [/size]
[size=14] That has got to be one of the hardest things I faced back when I first came here. NOBODY and I mean NOBODY I knew truly "understood" what I was going through. Even a couple RL friends who also played with me couldn't truly understand. I am so happy I stumbled in here and decided to stay. Reading story after story and finding bits and pieces that directly related to my own experience in each and every story, really helped open my eyes to just how deep my problem ran. Lucky for me I stumbled in here at a time when I was ready to admit those problems to myself. [/size]
" ... don't question it just go" "... where the body goes the mind will follow"
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Borrowed from "Desire to Stop"
Skuz; I had a hard time here at first because it felt like a subsitution. I wasn't playing but I was "at the computer." I felt some draw toward the socialization like the game. But what was different was the way they helped me look at myself differently. These people were the first ones to ask questions and confront motivations. Instead of wanting you to be like them and "play more" they encouraged each other to get support here while also encouraging you to get out and be with people more. I will use this resource as long as it takes for me to heal myself. I trust that these people will help me look at that honestly so I do not deceive myself into thinking I am farther in my recovery than I am. Congratulation on your progress and I think you contribute a lot to this process. Thanks for being here Skuz.
First of all, congratulations on making it through the first month. I believe that is the hardest phase for most gamers here. I am truly glad that you made the decision to keep coming back. Your sharing helps you and helps others along the way. I am glad you are here! Kathy
We gotta get you a 30-day chip SKUZ. Oops! I see Liz has already taken care of that in the milestones forum! Way ta go SKUZ!
"Small service is true service while it lasts. Of humblest friends, bright creature! scorn not one
The daisy, by the shadow that it casts,
Protects the lingering dewdrop from the sun." -------William Wordsworth
thanks guys! your support has been wonderful and since ive been here ive noticed a big difference in my confidence and even gained some friends along the way. i hope to keep on trucking with my game free days and working on getting my life straitened out.
you have a great attitude. It has been a pleasure sharing this adventure with you. Keep it going!
That's great SKuz.