So I am 5 day free. Well.... its a success? I dont know. It let me realise that whats my real issue is a procrastination. I put everything to do later. And before I used to play a game to not do the stuff I have to. Now I dont play but I still procrastinate..... so nothing change except that I dot go higher (or lower) in the SC2 ladder. I mean... im not playing at all but my life isnt changing for the better..... so the act of quitting playing isnt the act of full recovery....Is it? I need some help. Now I need to face my life. I need to face the things I have to do. I was avoiding that, by playing games. Thats just a way of avoiding LIFE! Yes - we gamers avoid LIFE by playing.... it seems that we are just having fun but reason of being addicted is just that its a way to avoid life..... it may be sunconscious. I am speaking for myself, maybe others have different experience. I remember times when it was not like that. I felt more "space" in myself. It was that "space" in which my life was happening. This space was taken by my addiction and since I quit this space remains occupied, nothing is freed. So I am still occupied by gaming... I am not free and I still procrastinate... I hope its not too complicated what I say :( Its just very tiring I wish I had normal, peacfull joyfull life, when my procrastination problem ends!
Man, yes, it is a success to be 5 days game free. It is a success that you set up your mind on changing your ways. Don't expect it to be easy or to happen overnight but you're in the right direction, just take it one step at a time.
Healthy enthusiasms add to life, addictions take away from it.
I heard from someone that it can happen overnight. Have faith. It will happen. You will beat this addiction.
Mario