Day one
I deleted all my roms last night from my computer after joining yesterday. I was surprised by how much I missed playing fire emblem this morning. I washed the dishes, swept the place, showered, did 70 crunches, and called verizon regarding the lack of telephone and internet in the house. Then I dressed up, came to school early, and am now going to do some make up homework
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You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
Congrats defense! Looks like you and I are starting out on the road of living game free at the same time.
The question is....will you be able/courageous/adult enough to sacrifice that which merely pleases you...for that which will truly fulfill you? That is the question of personal growth.
~~~Dem518
~~~wow-free since 8/22/09
Haha, thank you
You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
Keep it up and remember missing playing it doesn't mean you have to give into it. :) Keep yourself busy with rl and healthy things.
"Be the change you want to see in the world" -------Mahatma Gandhi.
Thanks for the advice Day 2 I overslept and missed my first class in college because of three factors. The first would be robot chicken, family guy and moral orel, as well as Judge Judy and Justice league unlimited. My second factor was a weird sickness I have in my throat that accumulate waste in my trachea (based on how weirdly I was coughing). My third factor, I, trying to be a good samaritan, was thinking about reinstalling WoW and making my own guild, with message of the day such as "make sure you hug your children tonight" "tell your wife 'I love you'" and "WoW is no excuse for household duties" to name a few. I figured, a lot of people in World of Warcraft are in denial about their addiction, and this would be a subtle way for me to help those who need the help. Nonetheless, I missed my first class, and came late 30 min for my second class. My throat got worse, but I'm optimistic about the rest of the day.
You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
The first two weeks, you WILL experience a loss of a reasonable sleep pattern. It does not happen overnight. This is completely normal. Your addiction will try very hard to provide you reasons that would exonerate you for going back to the game. The addiction, remember, is "cunning and baffleing". Under no power than that of a Higher Power can you continue to release yourself from the game. You will learn this in Steps two and three. Give your Self a break and try to hold out for the first two weeks, understanding that for all practical purposes, your brain is still "hooked" on the game and will attempt to persuade you to re-install and continue to play. Don't give in, allow yourself a few more days to really "see for yourself" the beauty around you in RL. You can do it, I feel it. I believe you can do it!
"There is little difference in people, but that little difference makes a big difference. The little difference is attitude. The big difference is whether it is positive or negative." --W. Clement Stone
I just read "step two" of the 12 step program. I won't lie that, in my weak moment, I had tried to ask a higher power to try to get me unhooked from the game. However, I'm an atheist, and my reasons overcome this begging for a higher power. I don't know how step two will help me out.
You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
well, instead of the twelve steps for the rest of us try http://www.olganon.org/?q=12_principles_atheists Maybe they will help you. Please continue to try.
"There is little difference in people, but that little difference makes a big difference. The little difference is attitude. The big difference is whether it is positive or negative." --W. Clement Stone
Thanks for the link, and thanks for the advice
You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
Day Three I went to the gym and weighted myself. I went down from 241 to 233 in two weeks (I'm 6'1"). I hung around with some friends, did some homework, and went home. After watching my usual shows, I felled asleep. I did think of WoW, but not as much. I tried hard to clear my mind, leave it empty. Every time WoW popped up, I would concentrate on clearing my mind. It's funny. Before, in my depressed state, I always had this imagination of myself rocking in a dark middle room. Every one of my friends and family members would walk away from me. Other times, I would imagine myself sinking down a dark quicksand, and no one would reach their hands for me. Now, I feel as part of the society. I jump, as to try to purposely sink into the quicksand (it was on my head for so long, I suppose it was unusual for me to not be thinking about it). The room is still dark, but I got my math partner, Emmanuel, to help me out into the light. I woke up this morning early due to the common cold. After making some breakfast and grooming myself, I got ready to go to school.
You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
You are making great progress, defense. One day at a time.
The question is....will you be able/courageous/adult enough to sacrifice that which merely pleases you...for that which will truly fulfill you? That is the question of personal growth.
~~~Dem518
~~~wow-free since 8/22/09
Thank you Day 4, day 5 My verizon DSL package arrived. I was happy in the sense that I would not have to depend on the school library anymore for computer usage, but I'm afraid that I will reinstall WoW and play it again. On friday night, I went to a haloween party, dressed in my Karate gi. I actually met this real cute girl, Hannah, who I would love to spend more time with. I was encouraged by her friends to "dance, even if you don't know how to," which was a bit exciting. I got a bit bored, since I was battling with embarasment from dancing like a fool, and left the party early. I woke up unusually late, and in pain from my shoulder, my back, and my quadriceps. These muscles were a bit sore since I overworked them. I came 20 min late to work, I did a part of an essay, and I talked to a friend of mine. I asked him if he knew about Hannah living in the dorm. When he confirmed it, I asked him if I could come over for him to "check my essay." I'm so shy around girls; I should've just asked her for her number.
You are stronger than anything I had faced before. But I know that there's still a way for me to win!
"hey Hannah,i just realised,your name is spelled the same forwards as it is backwards. It made me wonder,are you so flexible?" By the way,don't say that,just a joke lol. Sounds like me when i quit, although without the 70 crunchies and really busy day :P Sounds like you're coping better than most having just quit,good stuff :) And remember,as the old chinese proverb says: "The way to a man's heart is through his stomach.The way to a woman's is through chocolate,champagne,arguments,petty squabbling and maxing out the credit cards."
He who has doubt has fear and to know one's fear is to know yourself.Yet,you dont know.Because somewhere,in the subconscious of your very being,lies doubt. Fear is a paradox in itself. Fear is to be afraid,almost petrified.Yet,although a cliche, Fear is the greatest Fear of all. Hence i have a simple message.Do not hesitate.Act with reason.Step forward.Dont blame someone else if it goes wrong.To do this,is to become free.Of fear,of doubt and indeed,of yourself.
Although the Step Book is a great way to dive in and understand many parts of the Steps and Traditions, read the Big Book, substitute the word "alcohol with gaming", which is the original text...esp the chapter on Agnostics...I have atteneded 100's of Step meetings and they all open up new meaning when reviewing a Step of the week, its takes time, One day at a time. This too Shall pass, defence.
Be Good to yourself! Rule #62: "Don't take yourself too **** seriously! " 12x12 Book And dont forget to donate... Donate