nobody in chat so I'll spam it up here.
So I've been clean for 8 months now. I went back to school this semester to try to get the engineering license I should have gotten 5 years ago. Things have been pretty good. I was tempted to go back to WoW about a month or so ago. (dunno why, it just felt like that time of year) but the desire passed. These past few days however, my loneliness has really started to sting. I'll be 29 in less than a month and I was really hoping to have met a girl by then. WoW has always been the best medicant for this kind of pain but I know what will happen if I start up again.
I just don't know what to do. All I want in the world right now is ANYBODY to talk to :(
court12b..think it through..the whole process... LSit waht ya gained over the last months...and list what ya can lose buy playing that first game... Relaps a process...talk about whats going on with someone ...helps for me. Normal thoughts too if ya ask me, and sharing them cuts them in pieces till no more...its when one dosnt share its eats them, festers...and boom...they at it again....and results useally worse...I never heard it gets better...never... So we sick as our secrets in alot of ways...From what I have observed over the years in recovery, the people who keep taliking are winners. Or the people who "just" show up make it (meeting makers make it)... Live gets better, urges gets less...They say brain needs to heal 1 month for every year gaming...who knows...but a good rule of them. I once in awhile take my original gratitude list out when I first stopped gaming...althogh a few 24'ago, my list was short, i had lost alot, and the pain sometimes was harrd to understand, espcially since I was really unable to share in 12 Step meetings my issues of gaming, but I was some years Sober then and knew enough to ask for help, revise the Steps and work them from there....So in a sense its a ACTION program...Dont tell me , show me...and they did. Today my gratitude list contains amazing things I would never dreamed of as DIRECT result of the 12 Step programs...So if it helps...its gets better. And if its good, its gets great. Two steps foward, one step back...but the hand of 12 steps groups are their to guide me. Caause "self will run Riot" is around the corner for me...Keep coming back Court....
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Hi Court12b, Reading about your situation I can say mine is very similar. I was clean exactly 8 months only 2 days ago, I'm turning 30 (ouch...) in a bit over a month, starting studies again next summer which I 'should' have finished 5 years ago aswell and also thought I would have a girl by now. I don't have any great advice, often I'm still struggling myself. Same as you I do realise though that no matter how hard it is at times, going back to the game is not an option. Finding somebody to talk to about these things is indeed very important. Chat here is probably great (sorry, because of RSI I try to type as little as possible so I never go there, even typing this hurts lol) but not always available. If there's nobody you can talk to (family member, friend, etc) maybe a psychologist can help. Most schools and universities have somebody there who can help you with setting these things up. Good luck and take care! Oh and Gamingkrib, I enjoy reading your posts, always great advice (though sometimes I need to read them twice hehe). Just wanted to say that :) . Thanks!
You might try looking into one of the online matching services. My best friend from H.S. met his wife on EHarmony. She's good peoples, but then again, so is my my buddy. :) On the gaming note, there are no doubt more than a handful that feel your pain. Welcome!
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