Successful recovery to me means knowing when things are going off the rails and not giving into the urge to game again...
Talking to my sponsor, Sponcees and my recovery buddies about issues and working through them and praying for God's wisdom helps me to refocus.
It's easy to get caught up in old patterns but I can choose to make a different choice to find a new path to find the peace I need. That being said, I will be leaving for awhile. I find the forum to be very triggering lately and distracting me from working my steps and helping my Sponcee's.
Life's about choices I'm choosing to rise above it and do what best for me right now. I'd appreciate prayers and support right now.
When anger clouds my judgement the urge to troll again is very strong in me. I can't and won't go backwards...I won't let these thoughts of anger towards harming ppl or myself win.
So please I just ask those here who I've been having some conflict with to just let me be. I've done a lot of good for ppl here giving message of hope and support. But now I need all of your support.
Working the NA steps is hard hard work. I dare anyone to look at the questions and try to be brave enough to answer them. I know the only way I can get better it to be brave and have the courage to dig deep...so please Olga friends, I need support during this time for the sake of my recovery...
"Life always waits for some crisis to occur before revealing itself at its most brilliant." ~Paul Coelho
In my opinion, based on my own experience with recovery, these are my thoughts:
Supporting people's recovery, whether posts here or PMs directly to the OLGA member, is our primary purpose in OLGA.
That's our primary purpose here: Helping the excessive gamer recover.
Our points of view about different subjects is not the main purpose of this website.
Rain is recovering, she's a part of a 12-step OLGA study group, she's sponsoring people and being sponsored.
Being beat up by games, being beat up by life is a very real life experience that most, if not all, of us have experienced.
Recovering from gaming, from the years of scarring that excessive gaming has caused in our lives, we need lots of hugs. We need to love each other until we can learn to love ourselves.
Let's please keep this forum peaceful and healing.
I understand....I am doing step 4 right now.....yes...digging deep....So I think you know you and if you need a break then you need a break....I will be praying for you, Rain...Your support has been awesome, thank you.....HUGS!
Second Life escapee as of Oct 26, 2012 (feel free to Private Message me, I will always return a response) ~Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment~. Buddha http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kXr8-D8rJ6c&feature=fvwrel Abandon-HOLD ON!
Hugs Rain. The NA questions are totally confronting. Just reading the questions makes me hyperventilate.
Twelve miles into the forest, 12 miles out.
Left my poisonous game July 4, 2012. Left online communities June 4, 2013.
Do what you need to do for your own recovery, then everything else will fall in place.....praying for you always....HUGS XOXO
One of the things i love of the those NA questions is how much you can get closer and know more your sponcee. I'm witness of how much she's putting of her side to get better even when sometimes she wants to kill me lol. I know those questions are a pain but you're doing it wonderfully and i'm proud of you.
Hugs Rain, wishing you the best.
"She generally gave herself very good advice, (though she very seldom followed it)." --Lewis Carroll
*BIG hugs* Rain. I looked at those questions and ran away screaming lol.. you are answering them and working on breaking out of destructive patterns AND helping other people as well. I am proud of you too!
"A man who fears suffering is already suffering from what he fears." ~Michel de Montaigne
You've got my support and hugs Rain. I'll be glad to help in any way I can.
What you feed grows, and what you starve withers away.
You have my support as well. And my respect, of course--the NA questions are ruthless and thorough, but having tried to answer some of them, I'm happy to say that I feel that they are worth it. Best wishes and big hugs.
I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.
My Step 7 prayer:
Dear Lord-
I ask that you help continue to shine your light within me on all the things that I need to change. Let the dark shadows of self-doubt, fear, pride, resentments and many other things I'm not aware of be brought into the light. Help me Lord to recognize, accept and work toward changing these things so that I can be the person you intend me to be. Help to remove these faults of character and live my life according to your will. Help me to see the good in me as well as the bad and help rebuild a life filled with love and balance. Help remind me that I can do nothing without you and that your strength and wisdom is all I need to face even the highest mountains.
Rain