So I've bene game-free (again) for a couple of days (again). These days have been good and I'm pleased to be clawing my way back to a healthy life.
Tomorrow (Friday) I will be driving about 4 hours to school. The progam I'm in is a web-hybrid configuration. So most of my work is online but I go to campus about once per month. My habit is to get to town early and check into the hotel to get some game time in. This has always been one of the few times I can get a few hours of playing with no "interference" from others in my home. Then I drive back late Saturday night. When I get home I'm usually hyped up on coffee and irritable from being without games for the day. Those Saturday nights usually turn into late night game-fests.
I say all this to admit that I'm going into a high risk situatiion and am worried about getting triggered.
My plan is to alter my alter my pattern on Friday and arrive just in time for class. On Saturday night I'll try to connect to others to remain game free.
...thats the plan anyway...
Game free since 3/3/2014.
Good plan!
What you feed grows, and what you starve withers away.
What Scott said. You've got my number, and are more than welcome to use it if you need it. Hugs...
When you're going through hell...keep going. --Winston Churchill There is no pit so deep that God is not deeper still --Corrie ten Boom
Hey MC,
That plan sounds great but don't get discouraged if it does not go as planned. See if you can come up with Plan B if this Plan A does not work...Something that you can incorporate into your daily routine, preferably something that is fun to do and you would look forward to do it everyday. Hugs.
Maggie
It's good to have goals and dreams, but while you're waiting for things to change, waiting for promises to come to pass, don't be discontent with where you are. Learn to enjoy the season that you're in--Pastor Joel Osteen
Great plan ... now all it takes is get yourself to take action!
Come to the forum on Saturday night as soon as you get home and see how you feel.
I'm back from my trip. For the most part, things went well and I stayed busy.
I was driving home this evening (about a 4 hour drive) and thinking about stuff in general. I was listening to the radio, smoking a nice cigar, drinking a cup of coffee and enjoing the beautiful afternoon. All was good. Then suddenly...I thought about gaming. A huge craving hit me out of nowhere. It was pretty terrifying actually.
Luckily I was on the Interstate where I had zero chance of actually playing. I was able to "play the tape forward" as they say elsewhere. I thought through what would happen were I to play again. I could see myself sitting, bleary eyed and tired, staring at the screen for endless hours. I could see myself checking out of life and blowing off important obligations and lying to my family to account for my huge chunks of time away from them.
I was able to make a lucid choice to NOT game today. I'm so grateful for that. I'm so grateful for people who get what I'm going through.
Game free since 3/3/2014.